You know sometimes where you just have this " I'm sad but I don't know why feeling? " I'm kinds having it now . I'm not that emo kind of person but I just tend to overthink once in a blue moon , which would end up with me being real sad , like down to the bottom of fucking Mount Everest . I know I don't trust people that much , therefore sometimes I feel real bad when people put their complete trust in me , but I just couldn't find the courage to put my trust I'm them .am I just too weak or too broken to do so? I always ask myself if friends or what last but I would often give up thinking about it , and just try to hold on to whatever I have now . There're certain people whom I would never ever want to lose , ever . But then again , it's only my feeling , my thought . I hate that sometimes , just sometimes , I feel like I'm dispensable , low importance.  Even though I might not be . Fuck insecurities . Focus on the present , focus on the present .. Focus .. Smoke it away